I feel like I don't even know you any more, Where is that charming boy who walked me to my door? We used to talk every single day, Now hardly a word we say. Slowly we drifted apart, Some say we were doomed from the start. I hoped to prove them wrong, I guess our love was not that strong.
I hate the way you look at me now, It all went wrong and I don't know how, One minute you were holding me tight, The next we were having a fight, It was not meant to happen the way it did, If I'd have hurt you, God forbid. But it all happened so fast, I guess I was right to doubt we'd last.
Don't say that you care, Because this just isn't fair. Your stringing me along with your conversation, Filling me with hope and hesitation, I just don't know what to do, When all I have ever wanted is you. I know that I am the one to blame, I am full of so much guilt and shame. All I want is just one more chance, But I know now I wont get a second glance. So many dreams of you and me, Now fade into memory. You'd said you loved me and would marry me someday, I never imagined it'd end this way. My heart feels empty I'm in so much pain, These tears roll from my eyes like pouring rain. You haunt my thoughts through day and night, Without you nothing at all feels right. Everywhere I go and everything I see, Reminds me of what used to be. Tell me please because I need to know, How can I ever let go?
I am no saint nor a sinner,
Take me as I am or not at all.
I am neither experienced nor a beginner.
Take down that wall.
I am here by you side,
Whether you want me here or not.
I love every piece of you with pride,
Don't let that be forgot.
In my eyes you are perfection,
I hope you know.
Please accept this is more than affection,
It's not a phase that I will outgrow.
Believe me this is love,
I tell you it is true.
My angel sent from above,
Nothing matters but me and you.
Staring at my phone, But it will not ring. Oh, what a dreadful thing! Not received a single text, Growing tiresome and vexed. Could it be the signal though? Or could you be ignoring me so? Could you still be sleeping? Oh, my heart is weeping! Is this an over-reaction? Or could you be losing the attraction? Either way I want to know, Why wont you contact me so?
Like a shell washed upon the seashore, Taking on the world with no fear, After years of being embedded in the sea floor, Somebody comes along and holds you to their ear, You'd hidden your truths but no more, Patiently they listen and hear.
Everything changes and everything is new, You work hard to discover who you really are, So much to take in, to digest and chew. Your journey has taken you so far, You meet the side of yourself you never knew.
Like a bee buzzing through a forest of plants, Settling on a flower before quickly moving on, You don't look back, not a chance. A quick stop to collect what you need, then be gone.
Is your change good, I don't know. From the calm object of the beach, To someone the wind cannot even blow, You're distant and out of reach, Living in a routine flow. What lessons did your life teach, I hope you continue to learn and grow.
Brave little Shell Bee, You never once listened to me.
Lay down in my bed, My eye-lids close, Gently resting my head, Then my mind arose.
Sleeping I appear lazy, But my mind is going crazy, Thoughts flying around, New musings that I've found.
My mind flitters from one thought to next, Some happy some sad, some vexed.
I fix upon an issue, And my mind begins to rhyme, A poem about how I miss you, Written in no time, The words easily flow, What I've written brings me pride, I awake and flick my lamp on a gentle glow, And my eyes and mind open wide.
Jotting it all down in my note pad, I feel the words slipping, It doesn't quite match what I'd had, I feel my mind gripping, It's not quite right with only the few words I could save, The words appear bound only to my mind, Gone are the words that my initial musings gave, Again I rest my eyes, what else may my mind find?